DAY 1 — I'm a huge wimp
It is six in the morning and the clouds are turning pink outside my window. I can just barely see the moon through the mist.
This is probably going to be the only view I see today.
I am terrified to leave my room.
My hands are shaky and I can't stop crying. It would be easier if I could have a good, all-out sob and be done with it, but instead my tears are silent ones that steadily pour from the corners of my eyes.
I am scared and ashamed of it.
Four floors above the foreign streets, all I can see is rooftops. Eerie, lonely rooftops with weathervanes standing out against the rising sun. There is no sign of life at this level and no sound of it either.
My only consolation is the television that I have kept on all night turned to the only English station that I can find — a never-ending loop of BBC news.
My room is a shoebox, not large enough for Italian leather boots though, more fit for bargain children's shoes. The door opens into my tiny bed, a closet, and a desk. The bathroom is almost bigger then the room, but it is clean and has a window with a nice view of, well... rooftops.
What was I thinking?!
I have never been outside of my country alone before and here I am on an entirely different continent, alone in a strange hotel!
On top of the emotional goodbyes I made to family and friends just a few hours ago, I have lost and found both my bag and passport already, which, now that i think about it, may be part of the reason for the shaking.